Friday, March 16, 2001

Today was a good day. And thats cool. These days, good days are very rare.But i think fate has turned that around for me.. i get this feeling that things are gana change...Why? What triggered this thought?... well... i dont know. Really. Its just the way i respond to things now.Im different. I can feel it. Today i ditched like way more then half my day at school, i got up,ate breakfast,showered,did my hair, pick my clothes. very slowly. Then me and my best friend walked to school. We thought of ditching the whole day.. but we decided against it. But we got taught a lesson. We both regreted that we went at all. Both of us realized that nothing happened at 5th en 6th period.Lunch was a bore too.O well. Then we went to the mall...watched The Mexican... looked at clothes.. tried clothes on.. and all that. Jennifer kept going to the popcorn stand every time we passed by it. Which is like 10 times. She got popcorn each time. She ate like a dollars worth.O and we ate at CPK..thats wut my friend heather calls it. Stands for California Pizza Kitchen. Haahaha. We got sweet factory too. Dang.. if i think about it.. i must have spent close to 200 dollars at sweet factory.anyways... Yea~ then jennies brother picked us up, I went home. I was so scared thou.. you know how i ditched? well.. my mom knew cuz when i was home i accidently got the phone(since my brother was home sick) and it was my mom. She was all like."What are you doing home?" i was like " im... going............... right now...." then click. hehhe. the i didnt tell her i was going out and came home at 10. The good thing is.. since my mom goes out all the time ( which she did today too ) She didnt say anything. She just said.." look at me...do you want to graduate? You cant go back to the past no matter what. So dont do something your gana regret! Dont ditch school again." That was it. At that point i loved her so much i couldnt stop smiling. The she asked if i wanted to do my hair and tomorow.. Im going to do my hair at Tocos hair beauty parlor.!imagine me smiling at this point. Cuz i am. And im ingravving it in my head.. That i will not do regretful things that i know of.. but i will take my chances to live. true words to live by.. i promise.
Today was a good day. And thats cool. These days, good days are very rare.But i think fate has turned that around for me.. i get this feeling that things are gana change...Why? What triggered this thought?... well... i dont know. Really. Its just the way i respond to things now.Im different. I can feel it. Today i ditched like way more then half my day at school, i got up,ate breakfast,showered,did my hair, pick my clothes. very slowly. Then me and my best friend walked to school. We thought of ditching the whole day.. but we decided against it. But we got taught a lesson. We both regreted that we went at all. Both of us realized that nothing happened at 5th en 6th period.Lunch was a bore too.O well. Then we went to the mall...watched The Mexican... looked at clothes.. tried clothes on.. and all that. Jennifer kept going to the popcorn stand every time we passed by it. Which is like 10 times. She got popcorn each time. She ate like a dollars worth.O and we ate at CPK..thats wut my friend heather calls it. Stands for California Pizza Kitchen. Haahaha. We got sweet factory too. Dang.. if i think about it.. i must have spent close to 200 dollars at sweet factory.anyways... Yea~ then jennies brother picked us up, I went home. I was so scared thou.. you know how i ditched? well.. my mom knew cuz when i was home i accidently got the phone(since my brother was home sick) and it was my mom. She was all like."What are you doing home?" i was like " im... going............... right now...." then click. hehhe. the i didnt tell her i was going out and came home at 10. The good thing is.. since my mom goes out all the time ( which she did today too ) She didnt say anything. She just said.." look at me...do you want to graduate? You cant go back to the past no matter what. So dont do something your gana regret! Dont ditch school again." That was it. At that point i loved her so much i couldnt stop smiling. The she asked if i wanted to do my hair and tomorow.. Im going to do my hair at Tocos hair beauty parlor.!imagine me smiling at this point. Cuz i am. And im ingeaving it in my head.. That i will not do regretful things that i know of.. but i will take my chances to live. true words to live by.. i promise.
Today was a good day. And thats cool. These days, good days are very rare.But i think fate has turned that around for me.. i get this feeling that things are gana change...Why? What triggered this thought?... well... i dont know. Really. Its just the way i respond to things now.Im different. I can feel it. Today i ditched like way more then half my day at school, i got up,ate breakfast,showered,did my hair, pick my clothes. very slowly. Then me and my best friend walked to school. We thought of ditching the whole day.. but we decided against it. But we got taught a lesson. We both regreted that we went at all. Both of us realized that nothing happened at 5th en 6th period.Lunch was a bore too.O well. Then we went to the mall...watched The Mexican... looked at clothes.. tried clothes on.. and all that. Jennifer kept going to the popcorn stand every time we passed by it. Which is like 10 times. She got popcorn each time. She ate like a dollars worth.O and we ate at CPK..thats wut my friend heather calls it. Stands for California Pizza Kitchen. Haahaha. We got sweet factory too. Dang.. if i think about it.. i must have spent close to 200 dollars at sweet factory.anyways... Yea~ then jennies brother picked us up, I went home. I was so scared thou.. you know how i ditched? well.. my mom knew cuz when i was home i accidently got the phone(since my brother was home sick) and it was my mom. She was all like."What are you doing home?" i was like " im... going............... right now...." then click. hehhe. the i didnt tell her i was going out and came home at 10. The good thing is.. since my mom goes out all the time ( which she did today too ) She didnt say anything. She just said.." look at me...do you want to graduate? You cant go back to the past no matter what. So dont do something your gana regret! Dont ditch school again." That was it. At that point i loved her so much i couldnt stop smiling. The she asked if i wanted to do my hair and tomorow.. Im going to do my hair at Tocos hair beauty parlor.!imagine me smiling at this point. Cuz i am. And im ingeaving it in my head.. That i will not do regretful things that i know of.. but i will take my chances to live. true words to live by.. i promise.
Today was a good day. And thats cool. These days, good days are very rare.But i think fate has turned that around for me.. i get this feeling that things are gana change...Why? What triggered this thought?... well... i dont know. Really. Its just the way i respond to things now.Im different. I can feel it. Today i ditched like way more then half my day at school, i got up,ate breakfast,showered,did my hair, pick my clothes. very slowly. Then me and my best friend walked to school. We thought of ditching the whole day.. but we decided against it. But we got taught a lesson. We both regreted that we went at all. Both of us realized that nothing happened at 5th en 6th period.Lunch was a bore too.O well. Then we went to the mall...watched The Mexican... looked at clothes.. tried clothes on.. and all that. Jennifer kept going to the popcorn stand every time we passed by it. Which is like 10 times. She got popcorn each time. She ate like a dollars worth.O and we ate at CPK..thats wut my friend heather calls it. Stands for California Pizza Kitchen. Haahaha. We got sweet factory too. Dang.. if i think about it.. i must have spent close to 200 dollars at sweet factory.anyways... Yea~ then jennies brother picked us up, I went home. I was so scared thou.. you know how i ditched? well.. my mom knew cuz when i was home i accidently got the phone(since my brother was home sick) and it was my mom. She was all like."What are you doing home?" i was like " im... going............... right now...." then click. hehhe. the i didnt tell her i was going out and came home at 10. The good thing is.. since my mom goes out all the time ( which she did today too ) She didnt say anything. She just said.." look at me...do you want to graduate? You cant go back to the past no matter what. So dont do something your gana regret! Dont ditch school again." That was it. At that point i loved her so much i couldnt stop smiling. The she asked if i wanted to do my hair and tomorow.. Im going to do my hair at Tocos hair beauty parlor.!imagine me smiling at this point. Cuz i am. And im ingeaving it in my head.. That i will not do regretful things that i know of.. but i will take my chances to live. true words to live by.. i promise.
Today was a good day. And thats cool. These days, good days are very rare.But i think fate has turned that around for me.. i get this feeling that things are gana change...Why? What triggered this thought?... well... i dont know. Really. Its just the way i respond to things now.Im different. I can feel it. Today i ditched like way more then half my day at school, i got up,ate breakfast,showered,did my hair, pick my clothes. very slowly. Then me and my best friend walked to school. We thought of ditching the whole day.. but we decided against it. But we got taught a lesson. We both regreted that we went at all. Both of us realized that nothing happened at 5th en 6th period.Lunch was a bore too.O well. Then we went to the mall...watched The Mexican... looked at clothes.. tried clothes on.. and all that. Jennifer kept going to the popcorn stand every time we passed by it. Which is like 10 times. She got popcorn each time. She ate like a dollars worth.O and we ate at CPK..thats wut my friend heather calls it. Stands for California Pizza Kitchen. Haahaha. We got sweet factory too. Dang.. if i think about it.. i must have spent close to 200 dollars at sweet factory.anyways... Yea~ then jennies brother picked us up, I went home. I was so scared thou.. you know how i ditched? well.. my mom knew cuz when i was home i accidently got the phone(since my brother was home sick) and it was my mom. She was all like."What are you doing home?" i was like " im... going............... right now...." then click. hehhe. the i didnt tell her i was going out and came home at 10. The good thing is.. since my mom goes out all the time ( which she did today too ) She didnt say anything. She just said.." look at me...do you want to graduate? You cant go back to the past no matter what. So dont do something your gana regret! Dont ditch school again." That was it. At that point i loved her so much i couldnt stop smiling. The she asked if i wanted to do my hair and tomorow.. Im going to do my hair at Tocos hair beauty parlor.!imagine me smiling at this point. Cuz i am. And im ingeaving it in my head.. That i will not do regretful things that i know of.. but i will take my chances to live. true words to live by.. i promise.
Today was a good day. And thats cool. These days, good days are very rare.But i think fate has turned that around for me.. i get this feeling that things are gana change...Why? What triggered this thought?... well... i dont know. Really. Its just the way i respond to things now.Im different. I can feel it. Today i ditched like way more then half my day at school, i got up,ate breakfast,showered,did my hair, pick my clothes. very slowly. Then me and my best friend walked to school. We thought of ditching the whole day.. but we decided against it. But we got taught a lesson. We both regreted that we went at all. Both of us realized that nothing happened at 5th en 6th period.Lunch was a bore too.O well. Then we went to the mall...watched The Mexican... looked at clothes.. tried clothes on.. and all that. Jennifer kept going to the popcorn stand every time we passed by it. Which is like 10 times. She got popcorn each time. She ate like a dollars worth.O and we ate at CPK..thats wut my friend heather calls it. Stands for California Pizza Kitchen. Haahaha. We got sweet factory too. Dang.. if i think about it.. i must have spent close to 200 dollars at sweet factory.anyways... Yea~ then jennies brother picked us up, I went home. I was so scared thou.. you know how i ditched? well.. my mom knew cuz when i was home i accidently got the phone(since my brother was home sick) and it was my mom. She was all like."What are you doing home?" i was like " im... going............... right now...." then click. hehhe. the i didnt tell her i was going out and came home at 10. The good thing is.. since my mom goes out all the time ( which she did today too ) She didnt say anything. She just said.." look at me...do you want to graduate? You cant go back to the past no matter what. So dont do something your gana regret! Dont ditch school again." That was it. At that point i loved her so much i couldnt stop smiling. The she asked if i wanted to do my hair and tomorow.. Im going to do my hair at Tocos hair beauty parlor.!imagine me smiling at this point. Cuz i am. And im ingeaving it in my head.. That i will not do regretful things that i know of.. but i will take my chances to live. true words to live by.. i promise.

Wednesday, March 14, 2001

Dear bloggery...
Im so confused.... my mom called me on my h.phone just now and told me that she wouldnt make it home. This isnt her first time either. Shes been doing that quite often these days. Shes going through this divorce/separation thingy with my dad right now and she isnt worried about doing crazy things like that anymore. Shes works with making junior /miss clotheing so she goes out with her fasion designers to scout for ideas. I guess they go to different areas and shes too far away to come home. Stuff like this makes me so mad... I mean, without her, its just me and my brother at home. I dont know.. maybe im overreacting but it doesnt feel right. Im sad that she doesnt stop to think about me and my brother. Im sad that our family is messed up and we all have different,separate lives of our own . Im sad that my brother has to be in the middle of all this. He always knows when she doesnt come home. It seems to be in his instincts now.. Wake up, brush teeth, eat breakfast, see if moms home.... I try to show my disaproval too. I dont just sit there and put on a expressionless face. I make it full blast in my tone and attitude. She sees it too.. Shes not blind. She ignores it thou and does it again when it suits her. This is my point of view. Thats why im so confused. I dont know whats going on in that mind of hers. When i get right down to it, we are two completly different people and we need to communicate. I need to know whats going on and i need to fix it. Stuff like this hits hard at the heart from time to time.Its like a painful jab.Its hard thou..... me and my sassy ways and her and her momish speech. The shields are up and its not coming down.